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The lightning-spliced sky illuminates my bedroom
and I'm crouched in the corner, embraced by the dark,
thinking of how there could have been a chance
for me to wake up next to you, your emerald eyes
webbed with emotion, your body limp
from jerking in your sleep. I imagine ruffled sheets,
broken lamps, and permeating heat.

I think of how we could have jogged together
along roadsides and doubled over with thorns
in our ribs at your feeble attempts to whistle Dixie.
I'm collapsing inward, reminiscing on the truths
I should have told you and how every boy I pass
has your face, your dark brown hair, your lips.
And I cry. Oh, do I cry.

I saw you hunched over one day, exhausted
from nightmares, sipping Gatorade and reciting
poetry about there being beauty in decay,
and I couldn't help but think that you
were living proof of that phenomenon.
I wanted to cry for you and tell you about that time
a lady ran into me at Barnes & Noble and I'd had
no earthly idea that I was alive until she turned around
and said, "Watch where you're going!"

There are spiders inside my head. I can feel them
scurrying beneath my skull, and I'm not sure if
I want to rip them out or coil into a ball and
let them have me.

Waves are crashing, a tsunami against
my fragile bones, and I'm going under, drowning.

You had a way of coaxing my lips to smile,
of making the sun shine a little brighter,
of smashing those goddamned spiders,
but as the cliché goes, "that was then and
this is now," and now all I have are shadows,
raging tides, bittersweet memories, and my lying
yet hopeful heart.
"The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?" – Jeremiah 17:9

An older poem that was not easy to write. Decided to rework and post it.
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BeAnIndividual Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This poem is so beautiful <3 excellent, amazing job on it. I know how you feel in this situation... me too. Hang in there
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Thank you so much! :heart: You too. :huggle:
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Lychalis Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Student Writer
I rather like the striking imagery in this poem, although I'll just add a small note -
it should be tsunami, not tsunamis. There are no plurals in japanese. Although, tsunami against my fragile bones doesn't work too well - change it to 'a tsunami' and it's a lot better, as it implies the sheer force of a tsunami as it hits the shore.

^_^
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Thank you very much!
Oh wow, really? I had no idea. (You learn something new every day. :XD:) I'll go change that ASAP. Thanks for pointing it out!

:D
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Lychalis Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Student Writer
not at all :P it was interesting to discover for me as well :3
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
:D
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Fantastic work here, gal. I really really like that second stanza in particular. Well done!
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Thank you very much! I'm honored. :D
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FuzzyHoser Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome. :)
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
:huggle:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
The natural flow and sense of mind is so beautiful :heart:
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Thank you very much. :heart:
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ImagineAppleScruffs Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Very good! :) I've felt like this at times; it's like the whole world disintegrates into a black hole and nothing is left but you... lonely and alone. I hate feeling that way. :(
Anyway, wonderfully-expressed. :clap:

:peace:
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012
Thank you very much! Ugh, doesn't that feeling just suck? Luckily I don't feel that way anymore, but when I wrote this I did.
Thank you! :hug:
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ImagineAppleScruffs Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :)
Yeah, it really does suck; I feel that way sometimes still, but I'm not nearly as dramatic about it as I was when I was a teenager. :)
No problem! :D

:peace:
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Valkaneer Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012  Professional Writer
Awe....
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012
:heart:
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Valkaneer Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012  Professional Writer
Lovely neck-line, BTW! :)
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2012
Why thank you! :D
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012
:heart:
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012
:hug:
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2012
:huggle:
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