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QuirkyCuriousBex

Published: Apr 24, 2015

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I'm not in my body today
but floating on the ceiling
watching as I go about my
daily routine, knowing
I'm real but feeling
maybe I'm not-
maybe all this familiarity
is an illusion
and at any moment
I'll wake up to find myself
plugged into the Matrix
or skipping down the yellow brick road
in the Wonderful World of Oz,
a heroine destined for great things-
destined to find her way back home.
Maybe it's not the world
that's the illusion but me-
maybe this body I have,
brown stringy hair, blue eyes, bitten fingernails,
this awkward body
that fidgets and isn't proportioned right
is a prison
and I'm really a soul
meant to swirl
free.

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