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I'm out of the situation I was in. It's a huge relief, but at the same time I feel guilty. The truth is, in order to do what I knew was best for myself I had to hurt someone else. Someone I deeply cared about, and still care about. I didn't want to. I hated having to do it. After it was over with and I told this person what I'd done, explaining that I'd had to do it for my own well-being, I burst into tears and cried until I was completely drained. I apologized to her, assured her that I never wanted to hurt her, that I loved her, and that I'd still be there for her, but she still felt back-stabbed. She and I are both going to be reeling from this for a good long while, and it's my sincerest hope that eventually we reconnect and can put it behind us. She has told me she understands my reasoning and that she still loves me, which I take as a good sign. One day at a time.
I know all this is vague, and I'm sorry for that. Thing is, it's such a long and complicated story and I don't have the energy or time to go into it at the moment. I'll be moving again soon so I'm apartment hunting, and I currently don't have internet (I'm typing this on a public library computer), so my opportunities to post anything on dA, especially anything of substantial length, are few and far between.
I'm still here, guys. I know I'm super behind on replies and such. I'll catch up on those as soon as I'm able.
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I know it's been a while
Wow, it's been a hot minute since I've journaled. Work has been kicking my butt and I've been exhausted after getting home. The Dracula ballet I mentioned in my last journal was wonderful, my Thanksgiving, birthday, and Christmas were good, and my new year brings the resolution of reading more since I did very little of it last year. In other news, I made a horrible mistake. You may have noticed that I've taken down the Simba painting as well as well as the Jack, Sally, and Zero painting. It was brought to my attention that these were copies of other people's art pieces. I was completely unaware. I assumed the Simba picture I used as reference was a screenshot from the movie. I'd literally typed "Simba's roar screenshot" into Google and that was one of the images that came up, and I didn't bother to see where it was from. I can't remember where I found the picture of Jack, Sally and Zero but I know there was no artist attached to it. I feel horrible and stupid, and I am immensely
Onwards and Upwards
It’s been a while and I apologize for that. I’ve been overloaded at work and pretty much zombified by the time I get home. Two weekends ago, on the 7th, I went to the Renaissance festival in North Carolina that I mentioned in my last journal. I’m so glad I did. It was fantastic… and huge! They had everything you could think of: jousting, blacksmithing, music, rides, a circus act, comedy acts, a gypsy dance, a mock knighthood ceremony, shops galore, and even a dungeon. I walked around until I couldn’t walk anymore, and I still didn’t get to see it all. If you’re ever in or around North Carolina, I strongly recommend checking it out. It's in Huntersville and it runs for several weekends throughout the year. ;) I’m still doing artwork. I just finished a Christmas present for a friend of mine (which took a while since it was very detailed) and I’m planning on doing two Halloween-esqe paintings before the month is out. In other news, on the weekend before Halloween, I’ll be going
Fun things had and coming
I went to the comic con at the end of July. It was a lot of fun but extremely crowded. I could barely take a step without running into a person. I think I said "excuse me" more than anything else, haha. The highlight was getting to meet Vincent D’Onofrio--one of my favorite actors since I was a teen! He was a complete gentleman and loved the painting I did for him. I also got to meet Don Bluth, the creator of some of my favorite movies from childhood, and that was a thrilling experience as well. Oh, and the cosplays! Some of them were amazing! There were some downsides to the trip--namely the horrendous traffic, and there were two protesters outside the door professing damnation and hellfire to anyone who entered (which I did not expect and thought was weird)--but overall it was a great joy and I'm immensely glad I went. I’m still making plans to do fun stuff. Once the weather cools down (since I’m not fond of heat), I intend to do some outdoors activities. There are a few Civil
A storm trooper no longer
I’m sans boot now (yay!) and have switched to an ankle brace. The brace is much more comfortable than the boot—not to mention lighter—but there is a downside: it won’t fit inside any of my shoes, even my tennis shoes. I can wear a flipflop over it, but I’ve been advised not to do that unless walking a very short distance. I don’t exactly have the money to spend on sturdy, roomy shoes, so it’s (ugly ass) crocs for a few weeks out in public. Including at work. But you know, I’ll take any improvement I can get. In other news, my sister had her second surgery this year, this one to remove an abdominal hernia. It went well and she’s been having a smooth recovery, but I can tell she’s pretty much done with medical stuff and I don’t blame her one bit. I’m still making plans for things to do this summer. Some of my plans have had to be put on hold due to my injury (like kayaking), but there’s a comic con not too far from me in late July that I’m determined to go to. One of my favorite
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I see and hopefully in do time, that will happened for you both. Cause that is a good sign and if it's meant to be, it will happened for you both. So keep staying strong and keep your faith okay?